Supermom!

In everyone's life there are people who mean a lot to them but, every once in a while someone even more unique comes along. This is a person who you can call a “hero”. A hero is someone who has made a difference in my life, and it is obvious to the people around my family and me. My hero is my mom and there is definitely no question about it. My mother is a wonderful woman. She's the best mother that I could ever have. She's the one person in my life that I could trust the most. I could tell my mother anything in the world and she'll understand me. I'm glad that she is my mother and no doubt, I consider her as my hero in life.

My mom is a strong person just like Gilgamesh. My mom has a manly-like strength that she could lift up heavy boxes and a gallon of water. She is one of my precious amazing gift from the above and I am truly blessed. My mom is also brave just like Gilgamesh. She would fight for me no matter what. Gilgamesh is a character who is very self-confident. He feels that he is superior from the others, due to the fact that he is two-thirds god, and one third man. My mom is confident too, but the thing is, she is not arrogant like Gilgamesh. I would say she is pretty humble when it comes to compliments and even insults. Gilgamesh is a well-known personality in his city. My mom is not that famous but I believe in myself that there is something special in her that makes her unique and prominent from the others. Gilgamesh is cruel to the people of Uruk and sometimes oppressed them. Honestly, my mom is kinda strict to me in terms of my everyday tasks, house-hold chores and especially my grades in school. I would count that as an itty-bitty cruelty for me.

There are so many fictional super heroes in the whole wide world, but my mom has the best special ability among the others. She stands out the most. That makes her my favorite hero.

Nonfulfillment does exist

I do have some habits I'm proud of, like helping household chores, going to school on weekdays and attempting to make the most of life, but I'm far from perfect. And, right now, I actually have a fear that I can't seem to shake. I have so many fears and if you would ask me about my greatest fear, I would probably say "failures". I'm afraid of looking back on life when I'm older and seeing nothing but reactivity and missed opportunities. Seeing myself as an old-grumpy man reading free newspapers alone in a coffee shop, obeying thirst with free purified water filled in a plastic cup and debating how my life should be and should be not. I'm afraid of lying on my death bed knowing full-well I didn't make the most of this chance. This could be not letting people know how much I care about them, or simply taking the 'easy' route at every turn because I'm not willing to put the effort in.

I'm afraid of not finding my life's purpose. I struggle with it every day. I find it hard to commit to things because ‘I just don't know’. Sometimes I feel low because I haven't found it yet at my age, but I try to remember that some mighty successful people did some fabulous stuff later in life. I know everything that's happened/happening will lead me closer. My mom keeps reminding me "Every failures you make, the stronger the person you are." and that quote in my head will be forever indeed.

 I have been thinking about this fear for a while and wondering how I can eliminate it or make it go away. The only thing I have found to rid myself of this worry, is to act in alignment with my core values and standards at all times. To give and do the best I can in every situation. That's all any of us can do, right? It's important to realize that in everything we do, there's always a chance that we'll fail. Facing that chance, and embracing it, is not only courageous – it also gives us a fuller, more rewarding life. I overcome my fear with learning to think more positively because it is an incredibly powerful way to build self-confidence and neutralize self-sabotage.  If you're afraid of failing at something, having a "Plan B" in place can help you feel more confident about moving forward.

 

Many of us experience a fear of failure, but we mustn't let that fear to stop us from moving forward!!

Simply Contentment

My life had so much struggles and difficulties. I think with my very young fresh age, people wouldn't notice that I am suffering problems and such. It's amazing how life is, you live all day and all night solving problems like algebra. Sometimes I think that life is so funny like why we're creating problems that will probably make our life worse and insane at the same time.  But then again, Life can be like a roller coaster and just when you think you've had enough, and your ready to get off the ride and take the calm, easy merry-go around. You change your mind, throw you hands in the air and ride the roller coaster all over again. That's exhilaration... that's living a bit on the edge... that's being ALIVE! 

Life have so many branches, and contentment is one of them. For me, contentment sounds like a great thing if that definition is true for how you feel about all aspects of your life. But often times, we aren't truly satisfied with the way things are. We want more. We want to be better. It sounds weird if you say "hey, I'm contented with my life!!" (Well that's my opinion haha!) But ever since life was created, people are trying to be more than who they are. Our generation is really developing gradually throughout the years. What I mean is we are not just pleased by a piece of bread. We need loaves! Nevertheless, I believe that it's important to make changes in your life when you individually know you need to make them. You may feel contented continuing to live the lifestyle you've lived in the past because it's comfortable and easier that way, but there's so much to learn when you step outside your comfort zone and push yourself. With that being said, before you make any changes, you have to accept yourself. Accept that you are one great person made by God who has normal problems like everyone does which can be solved by having faith in God; praying. I'll be honest with myself, I never read bible ever since (maybe once or twice) not because I am anti-christ or what, but it's not all about memorizing the whole chapter of it. However, it's about understanding and learning the words of God. I must say and assumed that I am so loved by God no matter what.

My 16th Birthday dinner with my family somewhere in a classy fine dining restaurant located in Pioneer, Mandaluyong

This is two years ago though

I can tell you that currently, I am trying my best to position myself in the big dreams I have in mind. Of course, this is with the help of one amazing God, my supportive family, and my lovely friends. I am proud to say that I am discovering myself day by day, with the help of my style blog (Style & Crave), photography and writing. I'm so happy living my life not too much contented. Have goals in life and aiming what I dream every night. So the photo above was my family. I'd say they give me strength, contentment, life, and everything. I can't live without them.